5 Things.. .Idea from Belle De Jour

Five things I have, but don’t want:

About 10 chairs in the house, that I never use, and none are comfortable.
A horrible call center job that will go no where, and I have to deal with idiotic people.
A cat that when cranky decides to mark the floor next to the front door. Sigh.
A cervix that may or may not still have some odd cells having a siesta on it.
A Tv with inexplicable obvious lines horizontally streaking down the top two inches of the screen.

Five things I want, but don’t have:

My own house. In the UK. With a library. And very comfortable chair that doesn’t hurt.
To not feel pain at all times.
My hunny and I together. Now.
To actually be a published author.
A large capacity for patience.

Five things I don’t have and don’t want:

A degree in computers and all the certifications that go with it.
A foot fetish.
A family member who is also my ‘best friend’.
The urge to ever eat tripe, offal, or any other ‘bits’ an animal like that.
A ‘signature scent’ (unless you count ‘mildly sweaty’).

Renewed confidence..

Today was a good day.

I've started writing again, which I have to admit is a blessed feeling. I hope that it continues throughout the rest of the day, and even in to tomorrow.

I think part of my problem, was not just due to the stress of work and every day life. But it was also the worry and the apprehension of feeling like complete and total amateur.

But, on one of my random jaunts onto Kim Harrison's website I read her most recent Drama Box posting, and she was talking about her method of writing. And about how it's evolved over time. But she specifically spoke about how she does the dialogue first, then writes the chapter. Basically filling in between the spoken parts.

I thought I was a complete amateur because I had been doing this myself. Not recently, I'll admit. I have been struggling through this current chapter, as there is not much conversation in the current spot.

But knowing that what I'm doing is well... acceptable, gives me a little hope that I won't be a complete failure at it simply because of my particular process. Now, that doesn't take away from the fact that the entire book could be a complete and total failure, but that is entirely besides the point. And a point that I'm hoping will never happen.

To be quite honest, I've been fighting a bit of stress induced depression recently, and my depression was making me feel unsure about my writing abilities.

So off again I go to write, and I now know that it's perfectly okay just to scribble down a page of a dialogue when the inspiration hits.

Thank you for those who have reminded me that I'm doing a good job.

The Dracula Dossier

http://shootingstarsmag.blogspot.com/2008/10/win-dracula-dossier.html

Contest for the book The Dracula Dossier. Looks like an interesting read, that I wouldn't mind giving a go.

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And more to update about "A Hard Day's Bite" shortly.